I’m afraid I’ve been very, very naughty. Yesterday I skipped a day of posting. What’s more, I skipped the day before that, too.
I think it’s time. This blog has been a wonderful experience for me, but I’m starting to feel like it’s done what it was here to do. It’s built me up, taught me to see many things clearer, and taught me to write blog posts on a regular basis. It’s been good to see that I’ve managed to write something every day. Some days I haven’t been so proud of, and that’s partly why I’m calling it quits.
I started this blog for three reasons:
- Because it was scary and I wanted to go over that boundary.
- Because I had wanted to start a blog for ages but I hadn’t come up with a focused idea for one.
- Because I wanted to learn blogging: How to write blog posts, how to use WordPress etc.
For the past few weeks posting hasn’t felt as joyous as it did before. I’ve liked doing it, but I’ve often also felt exhausted. I came to realize that the reason might be that I no longer felt like the blog had a purpose. I have other projects which are more important to me now, and it’s driving me nuts to divide my attention between so many things.
I came here to find my voice, and I did. Now I’m tired of hearing it every day. This is why Hundred and Counting is no longer counting.
I might still keep posting when I feel like it, if I feel like it. I like this community and I’d love to remain a part of it, but sometimes I just feel the whole thing eats me up.
Today I was enjoying a cup of Yogi tea, and the proverb on it said: “Joy is the essence of success.” The past few days that I’ve taken a break, I’ve been feeling more joyous again, since nothing was constraining me. Don’t get me wrong, I still love writing and will keep on doing it, but I will allow more time for other aspects of my life, too.
Time to love, time to read. Time to eat tuna salad while staring mindlessly into empty space. Time to exercise and time to raise my nose towards the snow floating from the dark sky.
Thank you to all my blog neighbors once more. This has been such a lovely, supportive place to write a blog. I was scared rigid when I started, and it’s been wonderful to notice just how unfounded my fears were.